Saturday, August 20, 2011

Trouble




"You know you like it."


Pat laughed and looked down to the ground. We stood in the meadow, our meadow, a strong breeze blowing between us as we stood on the hill over looking the village. We had been meeting there secretly for a month or two and for that entire time she'd been lying and telling her father that she was in the village with her friends. He wouldn't have approved of the two of us hanging out alone together though we had done nothing. Pat kept her distance, but her walking off with me was clearly a sign of her own curiosity.

Her thoughts were quiet, but there was a sad buzz around her. It had been something I'd noticed on my last trip out when I'd snuck her off, but I hadn't pried. I could feel her on the edge of spilling her thoughts, the ones I'd only caught flashes of when we were together, and I wanted her to feel comfortable enough to speak to me.

"Pat, what is it? I can tell something's on your mind."


The wind pushed her hair across her face as she looked up, lifting her eyebrows and turning the corners of her mouth down a little bit. She thought about it, the buzz of her thoughts quieting as the breeze died away a little, and then she finally said, "You can't be happy with just this," she finally said.

I wasn't sure what to think. She wasn't jealous, at least it wasn't in her thoughts. "What do you mean?"

She didn't look away. Her eyes bore straight into me, and I stood there in front of her like I was a kid again, faced with a girl who was completely alien to me even though I could hear her thoughts. "You've been with other girls. You only see me once every two weeks. You can't mean this is okay."

I couldn't help smirking at her. "Are you saying you want more?"


Her eyes went wide. With the bright sunlight against her dark skin, I couldn't see it, but I knew she had to be blushing. "No! That's not what I meant at all. I just mean-- I mean--"

She fumbled for her words, not wanting to insinuate we were more than we were but at the same time realizing this had to mean something to me just the same as it meant to her. These were all things I could catch her thinking at once, as clear as if she whispered them to me. I've never been able to read emotions, but I could understand.


As she stumbled, I leaned over and kissed her. She tensed at first, and I pulled back just enough to catch her eye to see if she would bolt. She didn't seem to know if she would stay or make some excuse to get the hell out of there. But then she relaxed, and I moved in closer, wrapping my arms around her waist as she put her arms over my shoulders, and we continued, standing underneath the blossoming cherry tree. Her thoughts were still again, her lips were soft, her kisses sweet and tentative.


I pulled her closer, enjoying the warmth of her body against me, when I suddenly felt her tense again and then pull back.

"What's that?" She was looking down at my pants. I was already ready to apologize when she reached forward and lifted up my shirt to reveal the knife in its sheath on my belt. "A knife? Do you always have a knife? Why do you have a knife in the village?"

I gave a shrug, but it was obviously something that seemed to bother her. Her buzzing thoughts were difficult to read, none stood out over any of the others. "I always have a knife."

She paused to swallow, gathering her thoughts. "Brandon, have you ever hurt anyone?"


"No. Not on purpose. There was a training accident once where I broke someone's arm, but that's it."

Pat eyed me. It was as if she had expected that I would lie to her about something and she'd finally discovered what. She kept her hand on my shirt, holding it up so that she could keep checking out the knife in its sheath, but I caught her thoughts drifting to my abs and how flat my stomach was. I caught her thought over the rest, chatising herself for being shallow, and then she noticed me watching her with a slight smile. Another quick thought of hers rose above the rest that then slipped out of her mouth without thinking.

"Oh crap. I don't like this reading minds thing." She replaced my shirt and took a step back. "You're going to have to hurt someone someday, aren't you?"


Her voice was flat, but her thoughts clear. I couldn't lie to her. "To protect someone I care about, it's a possibility."

It wasn't a fact I was proud of, and it wasn't something I looked forward to. Hardly anyone did despite their bragging and their bravado. It was all show as most things in the Wildland had to be.

Pat held still for a moment before she stepped close and let me wrap my arms around her again. Her thoughts had calmed, and it was just us, the two of us, standing there on that hill. "Well then let's enjoy now."



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11 comments:

  1. Well, I think it's clear I've slowed down posting lately. I'm trying to post one chapter every two weeks. This is mostly because I have some of them them written out, but the majority are not written out, so at some point I'm going to probably start writing them before I post them which I hate doing. I'm hoping I'll get an urge one afternoon to write more entries out just to have them available.

    (Plus I keep meaning to update TS3 and all the hacks and the pose player, but I haven't yet. That is going to take forever.)

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  2. You were working at a pretty fast pace for most of the last year, so slowing down is certainly understandable!

    But anyway, I'm really enjoying seeing Brandon and Pat's burgeoning relationship. They look so young and innocent! I really like how Brandon could read her thoughts (or catch them, more accurately) but he wants her to be able to talk to him as well. It must make the whole dynamic seem just a tad more normal and less intimidating for Pat. You could almost forget someone could catch your thoughts if they weren't obviously doing it all the time.

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  3. Thanks, Van. :D

    Carla, lol, true. Thanks for understanding.

    They are so young and innocent. It's fun to write them this way and see the sims of them too.

    True, I didn't even think about that. Talking out loud would probably make her more comfortable over time, and you could almost forget that he can catch some thoughts. (And it seems like she did here, lol.)

    Thank you.

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  4. C'mon Pat, admit it, you were disappointed that it was a knife and not a case of him just being happy to see you...

    *Ba-dum Tish!*

    I'm a comedic genius >_>

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  5. Oh lol when she asked "what is this?" I at first totally thought of something else...lol she was looking down, I though you know he got excited...man I laughed when it turned out to be a knife...this says totally something about the state of my mind. Oh dear!

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  6. Poida, lol! Hopefully she wasn't expecting that from a kiss, haha.

    Speechless, lol, no worries. Dirty minds are always welcomed around here. ;)

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  7. Whole different side to Brandon, adorable couple, ah, young love. And Brandon has an impressive...er...knife.

    I hear you about the updating. Sims keeps slipping further down my list, but I am determined to move forward, no matter how slow the pace, cheers~

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  8. Drew, lol! Thank you.

    I know what you mean. That you're still driving forward with the intent to finish is very inspiring!

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  9. Poor Pat--growing up and having a crush is difficult enough without having to worry that the guy she likes is going to kill people and that her father is going to find out she's been seeing Brandon behind his back, too.

    I like that Brandon isn't pushing her--it's interesting that she thinks he wants more. :)

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  10. Rachel, true, that it's a concern is sort of sad. Like it isn't hard enough to be a teenager!

    As for Pat thinking he wants more, lol, maybe it's a bit more reflexive on her part.

    Thanks for commenting!

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